today is lazy and the parking lot is already steaming. we're dogsitting for our neighbor, patrick, and so there is a clumsy golden retriever named jordan bumbling around the house. her head is too small for her body. just over a year old, she stumbles around like two men in a horse suit.
well, there go the cds. with the thwap of her tail, stacks of everything tumble like jericho. the crash scares the shit out of her and she trips over my legs. puppies. they're about as graceful as i am.
my friend susan sent me a recently-recorded mp3 the other night. "guess who the other singer is?" she wrote. i took one listen to the song, which has long been a favorite, and knew who it was immediately. and i started to cry. this "other singer" has been a muse of mine for half my life.
i don't think i'm allowed yet to say who it is, but suffice it to say, this particular singer is very well-known and loved. and she complements susan's music with amazing grace. (how sweet the sound.)
when two worlds collide, even a degree or two removed, it wakes you up to wonder. my dear friend is spending the summer with one of my favorite artists of all time. how is this possible? i am utterly proud of susan, because i know that her current opportunities are hardwon and deserved. she's relocated from northern ireland to new york, and she busts her ass to get her music heard. she knows that she is living the life she was born to live.
susan is capable and responsible to her gifts.
and she takes risks.
and she wakes me up.
bring on the song
i've pushed you down deep
in my soul
for too long
what would happen if i chose to risk like susan risks? because i feel like i am about to burst with the desire to live more mindfully of my time and vocation. i want my words to sing.
frederick buechner's definition of vocation: where your deep gladness meets the world's great hunger.
i am on the verge of life-change with the imminent end of my job contract. what then?
i really believe that i am being called to get off my spiritual ass these days. with susan's priceless encouragement this week, i feel a little more brave. and capable.
i hope.
Posted by bananie at June 18, 2005 11:41 AM | TrackBackWe're going to see Susan play tomorrow night :) We're excited.
Posted by: James at June 19, 2005 9:26 PMHey, we know who the singer is and share in the joy of it all......
Does this mean you might take some of that writing a little further?????? No pressure!!
Hey have a look at our little blog now on: http://muckamore.blogspot.com/
We bought a digi. camera this weekend!!
Trevie
Posted by: Trevie at June 20, 2005 9:33 AMAnnie--I'm not as nice as Trevie. I'll pressure you if you pressure me! Hey, I picked up Ray Blackston's third novel in B&N the other day, and the first thing I see is you getting acknowledged! Have you see this?
This makes us twins, Annie. The week before I went to purchase the newest novel of Lisa Samson, and she acknowledges me as one of her blog buddies!
Posted by: Katy Raymond at June 20, 2005 3:32 PMyou know, katy, i haven't seen it yet. i'm supposed to get a copy in the mail, but haven't received it. stupid publishers.
yeah, i was lucky enough to get to proofread "rooville". mr b. is working on a new book at the moment, and i get to do the same thing this summer. lucky me!
Posted by: bananie at June 20, 2005 3:59 PMWhat great fun! I'm a big admirer of his, and looking forward to reading Rooville. The stack of stuff on my bed table grows ever taller, I'm afraid. Now I'm reading Gilead, which is marvelous. It's the kind of writing that keeps you jotting down spin-off thoughts in the margins. I've surprised myself a couple of times by composing salient, cohesive sentences with enough depth to be long-term keepers.
When you're post-menopausal, that's always a surprise! :)
Posted by: Katy Raymond at June 20, 2005 4:08 PMHope is coming out.
Posted by: [jp/p] at June 20, 2005 6:08 PMyeah JP/P: it's knocking at the door... and you GOTTA let that stranger in.
Hope also sits on the corner, with everything she has wrapped up inside her...
Let her out. Give her some sun. Let her turn around and kiss you on the nose before tapping her forehead and telling you "I'll be right here".
xx
Posted by: jude at June 20, 2005 8:15 PMyou don't know me, but a friend turned me onto your blog. i love it. beautifully written. and i want to thank you for it. i am often moved and made more aware of real life by what you share. today susan's challenge to you and crossed miles (back up to NYC) and cyber space to become a challenge to me. thank you. i neede to hear it! and let my voice join those around you...be brave...WRITE!!
Posted by: heather at June 26, 2005 12:28 PMheather. simply put: thank you. a thousand times over.
Posted by: bananie at June 26, 2005 6:33 PMbring on the wonder
bring on the song
i've pushed you down deep in my soul for too long
I just did a google search of these lyrics because they just played on the show "bones" on fox. Who is the singer? It's beautiful
Posted by: joey at September 13, 2006 6:56 PMI just did the same thing joey did. I think this song is gorgeous, and wanted to know who sings it.
Posted by: Robyn at September 13, 2006 7:02 PMI'm in the same boat with Joey. Exactly the same. And this was the only thing I found with the lyrics. But it's so beautiful.
Posted by: Nikki at September 13, 2006 7:02 PMSome as the last few people, I heard the song on Bones tonight and I think it's gorgeous. Wondering who it is...
Posted by: Lise at September 13, 2006 7:09 PMI found the singer. =) Her name is Susan Enan. Her MySpace is myspace.com/susanenan.
Posted by: Amy at September 13, 2006 7:09 PMMe, too! I'm dying to know who those wonderful singers are.
Posted by: Joel at September 13, 2006 7:17 PMI'm dittoing Joey & the others here. BONES continues to surprise me by being excellent week after week, & the the music supervisor is doing great work, choosing fine songs by lesser-known (to me) artists that fit the episode perfectly. I also Googled the chorus & the sole result was BANANIE's soulful blog, which I will now continue to read.
Posted by: gary at September 13, 2006 8:20 PMthank you for finding me, friends! and, more importantly, thank you for finding susan!
Posted by: bananie at September 13, 2006 8:42 PMI'm sorry to brother you with this and Im not even sure if someone will read it.I had heard that song on the TV not to long ago. I was wondering if you could please tell me who sings it? I typed in the lyrics for the song in a search engine and it pointed me to this page which was being the closest I could get to the song. Thanks for your time
I just found the information. So please disregard my first post. :) Great song! I cant wait for it to come out either. :) As Gary had posted I'll also continue to read your blog.
Posted by: Nitefighter at September 13, 2006 10:24 PMAmy, thanks for the tip; Ms. Enan is terrific. And (sad for me) a very long way from the west coast. Can't wait to be able to have an album of her material.
Bananie, thanks for being the gracious host, enduring the Googled Hordes (of which I'm one). And for crafting such lovely writings; I do believe I'll be back. Be well.
Posted by: Don Miller at September 14, 2006 3:47 AMWow, exactly the same here. That song is great. Thanks whoever found it.
Posted by: Baggas at March 15, 2007 5:29 AM