associated in random thought

i am a cyborg...who is about to again make coffee.

i'll bet you didn't know, but this is truly who i am:

meanwhile, i made the phonecall i have put off for a few weeks. i called my old manager from starbucks, the one i worked at last summer. i asked for a job. he said okay. next week, i will rejoin the workforce once again as barista extraordinaire.

...i am ambivalent about this, honestly. while i am delighted to be making a wage again, it's always a little humbling to go back to something from which you thought you had moved on. you know?

however, i can truthfully say that i have missed working with my hands, getting coffee grounds underneath my fingernails, and chumming with the regulars. the work fits me well. on the best days, it feels like the gospel, because starbucks regulars rarely have interaction with other human beings. they are corporate usa, and their fuel is caffeine. i am their moment of human contact some days. i like to engage the busy in that moment when they pause (take out their check card, and wait for their drink).

on the worst days, i am a cog, and i want to tell said regulars to fuck off with their 3/4 decaf triple venti sugar free vanilla soy no foam extra hot latte. in a double cup.

let's hope i can keep a zenlike perspective as i dust off the old green apron.

Posted by bananie at August 25, 2005 12:49 PM | TrackBack