saturday morning. it's after 11 already. i've spent the past hour or so in wonder of banksy, and his latest hijinks in the west bank. brilliant.
humidity has held time still for the past few days. there was a break in the morning yesterday, as i awoke to the remnants of small storms. the morning was drizzly and cool, and i drank 3 cups of french pressed coffee on the porch, as helen slept.
helen sleeps now, even. she's been asleep since thursday, when another migraine took her down. the medicine doesn't work. she is a zombie. a doctor visit yesterday concluded with plans for an MRI next week, and steroids to quell the pain in the meantime.
for now, we wait. she sleeps. i pace around the house, wanting to make it better. i drink copious amounts of coffee.
how could we have known how drastically our lives would change on may 19, when her bike collided with the stupidity of the austin water department?
oh time, heal the headaches.
we are awaiting new helmets for our new bicycles: yellow skull caps with the virgin of guadalupe on the back. we will be conspicuous, and hopefully protected by the holy decal.
i wish there were more stories/news/witty repartee to report from over here, but it's a cabin-crazy sort of quiet. my self-imposed unemployment must end something like immediately, and i am at a loss over what to do with myself. it's the proverbial quarter life malaise, i'm guessing. (throw in a few whispers of depression, and i'll be on the couch, drooling.)
i worry.
i shouldn't, but i do.
about helen's recovery.
about the debt collectors.
about needing to defer grad school for a semester.
about losing my faith.
about the $800 i have to fork out for a crown. [oh yes, i managed to crack a molar this week--while chewing soft crust pizza.]
that should about cover it for today.
huh. suddenly jon foreman is singing in my ear: we were meant to live for so much more.
Posted by bananie at August 6, 2005 10:06 AM | TrackBackWill be thinking of Helen. The helmets sound great. And when you first mentioned the crown, I was imagining the kind a queen would wear, and I was wondering why it cost $800 and why you were buying it, but you sounded so matter-of-fact about it, I was sure it was required of you....
Posted by: Lisa Connor at August 6, 2005 10:24 PMmy tiara will have to wait for now.
[oh lisa, you should know i would never spend less than a bazillion dollars for a tiara.]
Posted by: bananie at August 6, 2005 11:35 PMI thought the same thing! Only I thought, well, Annie's crown should come free, IMO. What's up with having to pay for your own crown? But, then, I'm REALLY groggy... :)
Posted by: Katy Raymond at August 8, 2005 6:30 AM