associated in random thought

at least the dog is losing weight.

mental health update, because you really want to know:

as of today, i am 100 per cent off effexor, which i have been wholly on for three years. you know, the drug that my witty little shrink said is a lot like heroin to quit.

so far, it doesn't feel so bad as a missed dose, which is all about the vertigo and huge headaches. i've got the mighty prozac to withstand such withdrawals, and the mighty helen to bring me chocolate and egg salad.
and so,thus far, i simply feel uneven, imbalanced, back, back, forth forth. that was an aaliyah song wasn't it? circa 1994?

my mental health recovery is a rigorous regimen of conditioning. i have a fabulous new therapist named melissa (and if you're reading this, i hope i sound less crazy than i do in your office) who puts me through a thorough workout every week. i've never been asked to look so honestly into the proverbial abyss; right now it's simply daunting. however, her waiting room keeps me coming back, with its appealing zen painting thingee, and a bowl full of tiny magnets, which resemble magnetic fruity pebbles. i'm tempted to steal them (i've even concocted a plan to pull it off...) but that would probably not be good for patient/therapist rapport.

note to self: ask melissa, in a meaningful way, where i can get my hands on my very own fruity pebble magnets. also find out if they come in that really great bowl, or if i have to supply my own.

right. what was i talking about? OH! withdrawals. along with the emotional seesaw, there is also the absentmindedness. i'm going off on more tangents than usual, and i keep losing my keys or one of the dogs.

my good doctor insists that all of this is normal, and will get easier soon. for the timebeing, he has extended my leave of absence from work (i can't IMAGINE trying to solve someone's problems right now), and so here i am. the newly svelte moe is lying at my feet, and the eggs are boiling for the salad that helen is about to make.

as the kids say: it's all good.
right?
Posted by bananie at June 29, 2006 11:27 PM | TrackBack