February 14, 2007
cold snap.
i have lost a lot of weight this week. my mental health has been precarious at best recently, and over the past few days i have stepped up to the plate to play an active role in how my life is lived. here is just a bit of weight loss:
1. i have cut back on cigarettes. how much have you cut back, you ask? let's just say that i have 2 cigarettes left from a pack i bought on monday afternoon.
2. i let helen cut off my hair. it needed to go. it was annoying me every day in its perpetually awkward stage. it is now very short. "ooo you look butch," maria said when she saw it this morning.
(i don't look butch. helen calls it my naughty nun look. i must be hott.)
3. i have decided to withdraw from the masters program at st ed's. as i said in my petition for late withdrawal: I know that I must step back from certain responsibilities in my life in order to take care of myself, and when weighed against my job and relationship, it makes sense to withdraw from school.
i cannot articulate what relief i feel after having made this decision. i feel light. fluffy. like fat free microwave popcorn. low sodium.
and so here is to valentine's day, less cigarettes, less hair, and less pressure. i am freer than i was a few short days ago.
oh and happy valentine's day from us:
Posted by bananie at February 14, 2007 6:33 PM | TrackBack
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Your hair looks great! And I can only imagine the freedom you must feel from dropping out of grad school. When I was in college and was feeling overwhelmed one semester, I wanted to drop a class and was told I couldn't (for various reasons), so I decided to not attend and fail. I talked with the professor about this, and he understood. I went bike riding that day along Lakeshore Drive, and I felt more exhilaration than I could possibly have imagined. Three cheers for freedom!
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