associated in random thought

happy birthday, mommy.

it's late, after midnight. i've just kicked greg(g)'s ass in canasta caliente.

though i slept late once again, i did make sure to snap a photo of my mother's senior picture. i always come back to this photo when i think of the woman she was when she was my age. even now, though i know she is only 18 in this photograph, she seems wise and independent: she is her own woman in 1956.

i have her eyes. i have her gaze. (and i have her lips too.)

if there has ever been a person in my life to show me how to live it well, it's my mother. i have lived a strange life of moving from place to place, joining this church and that, and for crying out loud: gay too? never once has my mother judged me. "you are my daughter, my baby. named after the mother of mary and the mother of john. that is who you are," she told me once.

if i ever wonder where i find the bravery to simply be who i am, i need not look far.

i love you, mother. i will be coming home soon.
Posted by bananie at February 3, 2007 12:19 AM | TrackBack