i cannot believe that i live in a place where it can be 85 degrees at the beginning of april. where am i, texas?
aside from mild complaints about premature bug season, i am a content little bananie. quiet. (you may have noticed the latter.)
it's a day off, glory be, and at 2:00 i'm still in jammies. my laptop is quite warm, after hours of traveling from the porch to the couch and back to bed. i've caught up on a lot of blogs today, and i've digested new ones.
the hammock may be calling me. helen should be home soon. i'm happy.
i'm happy! content. not striving. not struggling. not even second guessing myself. what a shift from the girl who was certain that the wrath of god was nipping at her heels. i am no longer the girl who (hates that she) believes every important decision she makes in life will be less than acceptable in the eyes of god and the church. that her relationship doesn't count. that she could never marry and actually be married.
the huge burden i've carried my whole life has been lifted. i am so grateful for the relief. i may not know what i believe anymore, when it comes to religious practice, but i am happy to say "i don't know."
i'm living my life.
and now to the hammock...