today i bought books. i said no to full price waterstones for the sake of good price, fair trade war on want. i saved much money and had a nice walk. and then i spent the afternoon at clements over a cafe au lait, ham & cheese toastie, and jonathan swift's "modest proposal", all while staring at myself.
i was seated in front of a mirror. every time i looked up, it was me.
oh hello.
and you know how this goes: once you realise that you see yourself, you begin to subtly pose:
so this is what i look like eating a toastie.
this is me deep in thought.
this is me sipping my beverage.
ohhhh, here's me looking attractive for all of clements.
and this is my why isn't anyone paying attention to me but me? look.
huh.
i didn't get much reading done.
once i was relieved from my narcisisstic (does that seem like too many s's to anyone else?) chair into a mirror-behind-me comfy seat, i was able to get some writing done. this is good news.
and then i came home to susan and chinese food. [read: honey chicken, cashews, fried rice, ice-cold coca-cola. mmm.] we spent the evening listening to good music, picking our favorite songs and sharing them.
"ooh this is my favorite line."
"and that is what makes a good song."
"why can't all such and such's songs be this great?"
we made hot totties.
watched the movie king of comedy . ohmy. has anyone seen this movie? i had no idea. think: robert deniro with a 1982 swoosh kind of hairdo and scary, entirely too linear moustache. jerry lewis in shorts. sandra bernhard with a perm. ok, so just sandra bernhard. enough said.
all this and it's a scorsese flick. with cameos by tony randall, dr. joyce brothers, victor borge, liza minelli.
i'm still smiling.
and i'm thinking of marlei's advice about finding the bright spots even in the dark days. (thank you susan.)
Posted by bananie at November 30, 2002 12:00 AM | TrackBack
Annie, the bright spots find us, don't they? They seek us out.
yes, katy, i think you're right.
and i've got a raymond for my first bright spot for sunday. :)
Posted by: bananie at December 1, 2002 07:08 AM
hi. i just wanted to say hello and to thank you for the kind words you left on my livejournal.
it means a lot to me when people say something.
i wonder if you could tell me where my words have been linked? i didn't know that anyone apart from people with livejournals were even aware that my words existed.
i hope you always find bright spots on dark days,
n.
i'm a poser.