another night of the innocence mission in a dark, safe room, after a sweater and umbrella weather day.
tonight, i feel okay. it's such a dark season, this winter, and quick-ending days have a way of eclipsing hope, perspective. words have fallen short (when i haven't lost them completely) and i find myself in this heavy place. i stare straight forward a lot, not focusing on anything in particular. furrowed brow stares. (don't do that furrowing thing, becca tells me. you'll get wrinkles and you've got nice skin.)
i don't write. i don't feel much. think much. i get lost in the everydayness. (you nod. understand. this happens to you too. i know.)
but. tonight i feel okay.
i don't know about tomorrow.
i can simply profess the present, and i am doing so, like a small churchbell.
...and tonight your presence in my present was indeed a great present.
we're going to make it... and ring out from the high points on the way.
lub
j xx
Jenna and I went to Celtic Seaweed baths in Sligo. You were right, they are great!! Perfect for the chill of winter. Went to that pub near it, was tempted to ask around if anyone remembered you.
Toasting your health here.
blessings
tjh
Posted by: trevie at February 18, 2003 08:28 AM