today is one of moments and small things. you know how you can look upon your life in seasons and seemingly unimportant days serve as hallmark memories? and you say to yourself: this day was what this time in my life was like. and sensory memories like songs or smells bring the day back for the rest of your life. so was today.
the second of march and i slept in. late. the day, like all the nashville days anymore, was fog and grey. just enough rain to smear your windshield if you turn the wipers on.
and i stripped wallpaper with marlei. smoked too many cigarettes. sat with her dog on my lap for a long time. read the secret life of bees. i listened to johnny cash sing "hurt" (watch the video here). such wistful poignancy without despair. very raw. like the day. like this season.
my cousin tom called. "so how come you never call me?" he jokingly asked. i don't know, i said. i really should. he invited me to a party in erie over memorial day. maybe i'll go.
i talked to my dang-near grown up niece, alyssa, who turned eleven today. she got a new bike. i am (much like you are) jealous.
i don't know what sets today apart from yesterday, really. i think it has something to do with the fog and insulated emotions. getting out of yourself enough to strip wallpaper and listen to johnny cash. a good day to turn eleven.
Posted by bananie at March 3, 2003 12:00 AM | TrackBack
have you gotten/listened to the entire cd that hurt is on? at least i think 'hurt' is on it...it is mostly cover songs about death and dying...it made me feel like jc has faced his death and wanted to make peace...another thing i feel around it is a sense that tomorrow is not promised for any of us and to not take anythingn for granted...keeps me mindful to act today...it is a beautiful cd that imo, everyone should own...
yes, i have heard that whole record. and it is very very good (though i have my reservations about fiona apple and bridge over troubled water). i agree with you; i think this is a definite life/choice/regret-focused record. and so achingly beautiful. oh my.